transluminy

Do you keep track of when things go well?

I don't.

I usually am acutely aware of what didn't work
what doesn't work
what happened that hurt me in the past


I have absolute access to these memories
in an instant

fear and pain can keep these things alive

but what about when things work?
and they do, they just don't stand out as loudly

so i am creating a little book for myself

Let's name it:

-book of things that work
-the good stuff to remember
-reference to what worked
-thank you book of good things that worked

and i will use it to record when things work

like this evening for example
I had a communication breakdown
with my beloved

and it was tough at times
really fucking tough

but we did manage to get to a place
where
we grew
and practiced new ways of communicating

and next time
we can start from a different place
and keep growing together

This is what I would like to record in my new little book.

When things work.