In science, accretion is a process in which the size of something gradually increases by steady addition of smaller parts. This term is used with specific meanings in several scientific fields.

I saw a pattern in my life today:
I saw that I believe I need to give a huge part of myself to most things I do.
I see things in enormous impossible steps and get overwhelmed
and run in fear

I became very aware that when I take small conscious actions,
an unpredictable unfolding occurs.

And another thing that is wonderful to try:
spend five minutes thinking about the "good" qualities in a person you are having trouble with.