when they say
we are all one

it's like:
yeah, when you do that
it will affect many things which will affect more things
and an endless flow of events will ripple out from that one thing
which actually was a ripple from something else
and it's been going on forever

but what about if you actually take your self out of the picture
imagining into small particles
blurring backwards all the picture you see
until it is all one fuzzy vibrating particle-y realm?

I keep trying to get to a solid place where i can see myself merging with a tree
i may stare at a tree and notice that the branch that is jumping up and down in the wind wouldn't be there if my brain didn't tell me that it was
this tree is inside of my head